Sometimes in life we have really good days that we want to bottle away and feel thankful for. That was basically my trip to Melbourne this week. I got to catch up with one of my oldest friends and we went to the Peninsula Hot Springs. If you’re anything like me – and you suck at relaxing – then I strongly recommend this. There’s twenty hot springs trailing down a hill, and you can lie in them for as long as you like, and then afterwards take a long nap because the minerals make you so relaxed. Essentially it was my happy place.
In the evening we went and watched ‘Of Monsters and Men’ perform, which was mind-blowing-incredible. I had no idea they were from Iceland. I don’t know why I never knew this, but I didn’t, and then I found out, and now they just seem a gazillion times cooler if that’s even possible.
The hardest part of the trip was probably walking around the city. A lot of people have said to me grief is easier after a year’s gone by, and I can appreciate where they’re coming from – in the sense that you can think, ‘the worst thing that could have ever happened in my life, happened last year and I’m still functioning some how’. In that sense I understand what they’re getting at. But there’s this other side to it. You look at your future and it seems like an endless void because you have to continue living your life without them. And there’s still this big hole that they used to fill, and you want to do something about it but you also don’t because you know it’s irreplaceable in some respects.
Melbourne was the last city I saw Jani in, and I saw her everywhere when I was walking around in it on Friday. Some memories make me smile, some memories make me laugh, and some memories I just need to sit with, and cry. And maybe that’s just how it goes, no matter how long it’s been since you lost the person you loved.
Anyway, I wasn’t expecting this post to be an emotional one. I still had an amazing time in Melbourne, and now I’m feeling a lot more refreshed for exams, which are kicking off in a few weeks! Below is me standing under a hipster sign, definitely up to no good 😉
If you’ve lost someone, I hope you can find ways for them to still be a part of your life.
Love always, Kat x